I Woke Up

I woke up the sunlight softly streaming down my avocado walls, and today was a new day. There has been a lot of change lately, and this change feels good, but scary at times too. I have been thinking something to myself a lot lately, and today I thought my thoughts out loud after we finished slack lining, and perhaps during a moment where my thoughts made no sense to be spoken, but I said something to this effect, "we get to be who we are, and why would we ever limit ourselves." As I continue with the photography program more and more people want to know what kind of a photographer I am, and I think I just want to do it all, this way I do not feel limited in my options to live and do what feels right for myself. And then Nelson shard something he had heard by some very inspired people "our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." This was beautiful to me and I truly know I have such a potential to succeed, but getting there is scary because it often requires sacrifice, and sacrificing something you care so dearly about, it is a hard thing to do, and I pray for Courage everyday. But life is beautiful, and it is a beautiful life, and I am ready to have the light wake my avocado walls again tomorrow, where I may drop my knees to the floor and receive the courage I need to do all of this.

I get to choose what I want to become, but I will not limit myself by saying something like, "That is not something I have done before, and it seems unlike me, so I will not do it." I am just going to go about living and doing what seems right in the moment, and there are great people around me so this couldn't be half bad.